
how do u feel when u have a sharp object near you.. Threatening at a close distance.. what if that person say, i can kill you anytime i want.. Isn't that person psychotic? What if that person is your own.. MOTHER? isn't it just so damn weird? She thinks that i am so afraid of a scissor.. hah.. is that a joke? she kept on poking the scissor onto my neck and my face trying to threaten me.. Like it's gonna work.. i aint afraid of a scissor.. dats just baby.. she perasan say agen dat dat she is not afraid to kill me.. den talk about her dulu punya life yang how my uncle used to be a gangster.. like i actually give a shit.. Really owh.. I wanted to tell her to kill me owh.. if she really did cut me.. i was planning to push her to the ground and run upstairs to my room and lock it.. den i call the police.. and take pictures of my wound.. see lar.. u go to jail oso i dun give a damn.. oh ya.. do know why she suddenly go psycho? Just because i side with my dad while Claire with my mum.. i really pity my dad.. i wish from the bottom of my heart that he never, ever met my mother.. then he can live a happy life.. kesian lar he.. Claire just dun see it.. she hated my dad for some reasons which i can't say here.. haiya.. atleast Carmen understand how i feel.. Shit owh my mum.. I dun care owh.. i want to study faster and leave the house.. i can't take it anymore!
So i think.. this is what life really is.. It's shit..